A friend writes… “It’s hard to believe that God has any idea what is going on on this planet….”

John, now that you mention it…I think it’s most likely God does have an idea what’s going on on this planet. After all, this Earth is only a small (though pretty important to us!) part of God’s beloved creation. Creation itself goes on and on beyond our imagination. That’s what God does. Or IS.

Wildfires, floods, volcanoes, earthquakes, contagious diseases, asteroids, animal extinctions–all these happenings occur beyond human control. (Even if you’re a devoted environmentalist!) Indeed, God may have better ideas coming along after the kind of people we are. Maybe it’s AI? We always talk about “life as we know it” on other planets. Well, what about life as we don’t know it on this one?

Looking at the Big Picture, a worldwide human die-off seems almost inevitable–like the dinosaurs. I’ll be gone soon enough: a presence too tiny to matter–except for my faith while I’m alive. At the moment, my responsibility is to work for justice and mercy close to home. Love God. Love people. Shine a little light.

I know you will, too.

Love,

Barbara

My blog has been silent since July. As I predicted in that post about Joe Biden’s exit from the presidential race, political tribulations have consumed way too much mental and emotional energy for all Americans. At this moment, uncertainty and fears remain. Right now, I’m rejecting those inklings of the future to live in this moment–the only time (if there is such a thing as time) where I can actually do something. Like write a blog post.

This morning, I read a thoughtful essay by David Brooks about his journey into what might be called Faith. You can link to it here:

His reflections, and the writers and thinkers who inspired him, coincide greatly with my own lifelong adventure in faith, spirituality, organized religion, atheism (about ten minutes), and current experience of that for which we use the (problematic) name GOD.

You may have noticed the uproar of the worldwide tsunami called Artificial Intelligence (AI). You’ve probably made use of it by way of ChatGPT or Hey Siri or that “person” on the phone who helped you sort out your health insurance issue. Perhaps you’ve read about a vulnerable young person seduced online by a charming ChatBot, unable to believe she wasn’t real. Indeed, what is “real” becomes more and more difficult to determine for any of us, when facts and photos and opinions and reports swamp our minds with information we can’t check out. So we do “check out”–give up caring–to save ourselves from a darkness that leaves us speechless, as I have been since July.

But here’s something else. I have long believed that the universe listens to me. Humorous (and spooky) evidence of this is the way my thoughts (“I need a pair of house slippers”) seem to translate into a succession of house slipper ads on my Facebook page, although I have typed not a word about my wish into an actual computer.  I didn’t ask Siri anything! But somehow, some online retailer knew.

We’ve all had the experience of remembering “out of the blue” an old friend. As we are merely thinking the thought, the text pings or the email drops in or the phone rings, and it’s them. I enjoy small world encounters, as when I meet up at an airport or a restaurant or some unexpected place with a person from my past. I keep my inner antenna extended day by day. As such things seem to happen more and more often, I feel mysteriously connected and also cared for. Is the “universe” looking out for me? I have deeper desires and wishes than house slippers.

Today’s physics offers more and more proof, in its way, of the energy field at the limit of our current knowledge and experience of creation, evolution, and consciousness. Occasionally, unexpectedly, that energy breaks through our personal limitations with a gift of WOW!!

That’s what Brooks was talking about. That’s what I remember happening in my own life. That’s why the chaos of current events seems like a silly thing to fear.

In his letter to a troubled people, one of the heroes of the religion I practice offers this assurance:

I am convinced that there is nothing in death or life, in the realm of spirits or superhuman powers, in the world as it is or the world as it shall be, in the forces of the universe, in heights or depths–nothing in all creation that can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.  Romans 8: 35-39

You don’t have to be a “Christian” to share the humanity revealed in Jesus as the love of God. When that Love bursts in on you from time to time, you know it. May it be so in 2025.

Do I overstate? I don’t think so. By stepping down from the highest seat of power in the world, Joe Biden has shown the greatness of his character and the depth of his faith. It is well known that he prays and worships. His faith has sustained him through tragic losses and heart-breaking disappointments. Against overwhelming criticism, he meant to prove the steadfastness of his calling as President of the United States by holding on…and on…and on. UNTIL. The clearer call to sacrifice came through to him. Like Abraham (yes, Abraham) lifting the knife, he kept listening to his supreme Guide. Then, in a decision made seemingly in a moment, he laid down his power, and just as importantly, handed it off in a convincing way to his immediate disciple. No waffling. The tsunami of enthusiasm currently filling the reports and the polls and the coffers of politics will soon abate. Kamala Harris will wake up to critics and doubters. Yet through the shadows–whether or not she has faith of her own (religious or otherwise)–she will be sustained by the faith of Joe Biden. In the blink of an eye, Joe Biden rose up from the appearance of feeble old man to heroic statesman and immortal human being as history records itself. I write these thoughts in the midst of my own elation, realizing that days ahead will bring tribulations as never before in American politics. Nevertheless, the faith and courage of Joe Biden shine a beacon of hope to light the way.

Let all eyes be opened.

July 23, 2024

It’s time now to tune out the angry noise and tune in to your inner wisdom.  You know your life is pretty good right now.  You don’t hate your nutty neighbors.  You’re doing all right in spite of a pinch in the price of gas or chicken nuggets.  Your kids go to a pretty good public school. You trust your fellow citizens who check you in at your local polling place.  You’re grateful to vote.  In short, you know you’re not living in a “sh*thole” country–that is, a country where gangs rampage and armies rule.

Take a deep breath. Take a walk in the nearest green space.  Take time out from any screen or newspaper that screams bad news 24/7.  Find a place where you can look up and see the stars. You could even drop into a church that teaches Love Thy Neighbor–no exceptions. And does it.

I’m in favor of staying informed about current events.  I try to be educated in the context of history and committed to principles of ethics.  These days, however, the ratio of noise to information is exhausting. So I turn to poetry, every day, and to the writings of teachers and philosophers whose enduring thoughts aim at the highest possibilities of the human spirit.  I also embrace humor.  Without a sense of humor, the soul withers.

It’s June.  Make this a summer of joy for yourself.  No one can stop you. Here’s a suggestion from a poem of mine written a long time ago.  May you enjoy such a privilege.

The State of Absolute Nap

Its conditions are rare. You must be free
of all desires but one: to sleep. You must be alone,
completely isolated from the compelling hum
of traffic or tv. There must be no phone,
unfinished book, or business left undone,
no guilt about neglecting anyone,
and nowhere to go too soon.
Let there be rain on a long afternoon
in the deep woods, at the end
of a long path, where no one will come,
after the last word with a listening friend.

Published in Plains Poetry Journal and in my collection Road Trip

Here are two more suggestions for a dollop of humor anytime:

https://www.lightenup-online.co.uk/index.php/issue-66-june-2024

lightpoetrymagazine.com

*from The Waking by Theodore Roethke.  Please look it up!

What’s the most vivid expression of human unity across all boundaries of time, culture, language, and self-interest?  It’s music, dear ones.  It’s MUSIC.

This idea is so unoriginal I almost hesitate to discuss it as though it had just occurred to me alone. Like, where have I been all my life?  Lately, though, I’ve been feeling it personally and profoundly. I’ve been prompted to this fresh appreciation mainly by the experience of orchestra concerts.

Bill and I are fortunate to enjoy live performances by the excellent Kansas City Symphony, whose new director, Matthias Pintscher, promises an exciting musical future for the orchestra and the community. Frequent attendance at the Kansas City Symphony brings us face-to-face, like friends, with our professional musicians and with our neighbors in the audience, too.

Meanwhile, at home, I have subscribed for a number of years to Medici.tv, an online library that furnishes an ever-enlarging selection of symphony concerts, virtuoso soloists, operas, ballet, and music-related documentaries from around the world. With this resource at hand 24/7, many hours of my life have been saved from on-screen doom-scrolling, from anger, hate, hopelessness, and…well, from self-induced boredom. Immersed in Beethoven, thrilled by Joyce Di Donato, delighted by conductors like Klaus Mäkelä, awed by, say, the orchestra of young musicians brought from Peru to their European debut by opera star Juan Diego Flores….I embrace endless choices. Every hour spent with these artists erases whatever dismal view of humanity the headlines might be selling.

I particularly dote on orchestras–musicians who, in collaboration without regard to color, gender, age, nationality, or any other division, devote themselves to their instruments, to each other, and of course to the music itself.

Whether I’m viewing a symphony performance in person or on a screen via camera close-ups, I see the faces of musicians alight in the joy of the moment, skillfully playing their unique parts.  Each contributes to a whole creation where every kind of sound signifies. I see people from all over the planet, literally hundreds of accomplished individuals, listening to each other, lending their souls, blending their individuality into one beautiful unity.

“Make me an instrument of Thy peace,” prayed St. Francis of Assisi.  Am I a piccolo or a piano? A trombone or a triangle?  Whatever. Let my single irreplaceable note be written in perfect harmony, along with everyone else’s, by the Eternal Composer.

They’ve started appearing on the backs of my hands: the dreaded (so they say) age spots.  These large-size versions of the freckles I’ve lived with all my life come as a surprise.  Evidently my body is much older than my brain imagines my self to be.

Yes, I quit being a redhead ten years ago.  Somehow the crown of snowy white up top never says “age” to me, but rather “fashion choice.”  The extra pounds around my middle?  Well, I’ve staved off the inevitable for my whole life so far, and now? I don’t have many years left to eat cookies. Recent medical scrutiny didn’t turn up anything likely to do me in right away.  So, I’ll don my What, Me Worry? suit and march off into the new year.

That suit?  Fabric of gratitude, with embellishments of faith, hope, and love.

Yes, I could produce a Cheery Barb sort of essay.  But right now, as celebrity obituaries poke holes in my past, and signs of aging show up in my person, I’d rather acknowledge the right and privilege we all should claim, that is, permission to let go. This poem appeared in a recent print issue of I-70 Review where no one will see it except the tiny population of poetry readers–the only audience tinier being the one here at my blog.  I’m grateful for you.  And I wish you a year ahead filled with the light of wisdom and love. That’s the gift of a lifetime.

REBUTTAL

Do not go gentle into that good night…—Dylan Thomas

Go gentle, darling, into that good night.

Allow the anodyne to ease your pain.

We only walk from darkness into light.

Refuse technologies designed to fight

what’s called a battle with a calm disdain.

Go gentle, darling, into that good night.

Let no one claiming hope refute your right

to own your body and your soul’s domain,

to move in love from darkness into light.

Your hope is beckoning beyond the fright-

ful needles and machines.  Who can explain

the letting go that leads into a night

of wonder, the horizon in your sight

where nothing of remorse or fear remain,

where darkness shatters in eternal light?

Insist on being left alone despite

all human argument.  Let them complain.

Go gentle, darling, into that good night.

We only walk from darkness into light.

Barbara Loots

Published in I-70 Review, 2023

–What do you do? people inquire politely.

–I am a writer I say.

–What do you write? they ask.

–I am a poet.

–Oh, they say.

This sometimes puts an uncomfortable spin on further conversation.

Most people, it seems, are a little intimidated in the presence of someone claiming to be a Poet.  Either they “don’t read poetry” or they think of poetry as an intellectual realm outside their interests or they connect with poetry mainly by way of inspirational posters and greeting cards–all notions that put a damper on whatever we might talk about next.

It’s hard to explain being a Poet, sort of like it’s hard to explain being a Christian–as in, I’m a Christian, but not that kind of Christian. (I’ve been in a position to attempt both explanations.)

Truthfully, I have my quarrel with the poetry these days. The fact is, thousands of people write poems. Today, online technology has provided every one of them with a platform.  Some of the contributors to the digital universe are Poets. Others? Arguably not. No one agrees on a definition of Poetry, and everyone who reads poetry has their preferences. I celebrate this diversity, even as I select what to read, or not, day by day. Plenty of poetry being written nowadays doesn’t float my boat. However, I respectfully suggest that you give Read a Poem Every Day* a fair try. There’s lots to choose from, and you’re just a click away from expressing your opinion of it one way or another.

Lately, I’ve been experiencing an unexpected feeling–a sense that I have “arrived” as a Poet. That is, I have come to a place my young self dreamed of, but in an entirely different way than I had previously imagined.  Once upon a time, I sought after a long list of publishing credits, prizes, critical recognition, applause from a live audience.  Even some authority figure who would make the pronouncement: Yea, thou art a Poet.

What has actually happened is more subtle, and more satisfying: I have friends. Friends I’ve never met except in the realm of Poetry. Friends who share my beliefs–and prejudices–about what Poetry should be.  Friends who introduce me to astonishing new experiences of Poetry.  Some of them are Poets–prize-winning, critically admired, widely published Poets.  Some of them are readers who tell me they liked something I wrote.  A few of them–a mystery audience–have even bought my books. (Thank you).  All these friends I’ve met through poetry give me the sense of belonging that’s embedded deeply in all human desire.

Being a Poet may involve a unique gift of talent and the urgency to write.  I have always written poetry. I have worked at my craft since I could hold a pencil. I have pursued all the goals mentioned above with some success. But the real reward of it all besides making poems is making friends. Since you’re reading this, you are certainly one of them, and I am grateful for you.

Here’s a gentle little poem I wrote in the beginning, a long time ago.  I hope you’ll want to read more.

A POEM

Let it come to you quietly

   as sleep spilling

      into the lid of day.

Let it flow as naturally

   as rain running

      over the eaves of May.

Let it touch as tenderly

   as lovers’ hands,

Be still

and easy as afternoon shadows

   sliding

      down a long hill.

Published in The Lyric Spring 1974

*Not an actual website.  Google your own poetry adventure.

I’m calling it The Year of the Loons.  When we arrived at the island, we discovered that a Loon pair had parked their nest, with two eggs in it, low on the shoreline where our dock was to be anchored.  Happily, we established a peace pact, and the loons, parenting equally, minded their eggs, while we came and went as quietly as possible. Thirty days later, one fuzzy loonling hatched and we spent the summer observing the parents model “How to Be a Loon.”

We sampled three seasons in Ontario this year, from the last days of Spring in June to the first days of Autumn in September–almost three months enjoying cool weather (and a lot of rain) in the cottage country near Parry Sound.  Considering this was the hottest summer on record in the Midwest, we felt more than blessed to be elsewhere.

I read more than forty books–theology, thrillers, poetry, politics.   Wrote a few poems.  Kept the hearthfire going.  Watched Bill work on a never-ending list of Island Improvement projects.

For daily contemplation, I used a book by one of my favorite spiritual teachers, Brother David Steindl-Rast*, savoring his meditations on the 99 Names of God, as revered in Islamic tradition.

We missed seeing the big snapping turtle this year, but we had the joy of watching a trio of otters cavort around the island with their tumbling playfulness.

Bill caught some fish, and we ate ’em.

Obviously, these highlights don’t begin to tell the whole story of the island experience.  The cottage was built–rebuilt, that is, from its earlier existence–the year I was born.  We both seem to be holding up pretty well after seventy-seven years.  Each year, we soak our bodies and spirits in the wonder of our little wilderness, while the stars remind us of our place in bigger things.

al-Mu’izz, the HONORER

…are we not clay, which some unfathomable dynamic honored…

  –David Steindl-Rast, OSB  99 Names of God

I am the clay that remembers,

I am the waters that grieve,

I am the elements earth has assembled

to witness, create, and believe,

to utter the sounds for the naming

of everything given to me,

something from nothingness claiming

to know how I happen to be.

Barbara Loots

At Blackwater Lake 2023

 *author of Gratefulness: The Heart of Prayer

Every now and then, I crank up my courage and take myself over to the Community Blood Center. Just did. In fact, the latest donation was something of a milestone: a lifetime contribution of twenty gallons of blood. Yeah, yeah. Bragging rights? Many people have achieved that measure, including those who have given gallons as platelets, an extraction from whole blood used for many modern healing procedures. Science has yet to create a substitute for human blood.

Whatever the type of donation, it requires a certain sangfroid to allow some tech you’ve never met to (trigger alert!) stick a big needle in your arm and fill up a baggie with a pound or so of flesh, the fundamental fluid of your life.

Although there is Biblical precedent for bargaining with God, I don’t think making deals with the Giver of Everything is the way to go. However, I’ve expressed gratitude again and again that I have escaped, my whole life so far, being the recipient instead of the donor. I was particularly stunned with importance when I found out that my O-negative blood type is vital for saving newborns. They use a special “baby bag” for what my body delivers—a lot simpler, come to think of it, than giving birth. But I digress…

I was prompted this time by the patriotic exuberance and solemn dignity of the Memorial Day Celebration at the Station—an annual event in Kansas City, featuring the KC Symphony. Yes, it’s fun and neighborly to crowd the grounds of the train station and the inspiring World War I Memorial and Museum, to wave little flags, to hear tributes to those who have served, and thrill to the boom of the cannon and flash of the fireworks.

In truth, this glory in war is gruesome. Always was, always will be.

However, if the shedding of blood for the sake of humanity has some visceral, symbolic appeal you’d like to experience, there’s a way to do it without dying. Awhile back, I wrote an irreverent poem, which I put in my book Windshift. In my theology, all humanity, every one of us, is the embodiment of God’s spirit. We can all aim to be Jesus in one way or another.

“DONOR” NOBIS PACEM

I’ve shed more blood than Jesus.
There’s really nothing to it.
From time to time, I’ve saved a soul
and didn’t die to do it.

I haven’t got a golden crown
for gallons I have given,
no promise of eternal life,
no glory ride to heaven,

no mystic explanation,
no complicated creed.
A bag of hemoglobin
fulfills the human need.

O beautiful the bleeding heart,
O-negative the way
that leads to the salvation
of someone’s child today.

My body manufactures cells
that oxidize like rust.
O Lord replenish them, I pray,
until I turn to dust.

I believe that the healing of the world is meant to be spiritual and medical, not military. I give my blood gladly to that hope.

Every morning, I tumble out of bed, usually before the sun comes up. After coffee, breakfast, meditation, and news review, I take myself back upstairs to the bedroom to shuck the jammies and dress for the rest of the day’s activities.

That’s when I glance over at the bed I share with my spouse, who is, by that time, elsewhere in the house. The covers I left rumpled are smoothly drawn up. The hem of the bedspread is aligned parallel to the floor. The useless decorative pillows are neatly arranged. The bed is made.

The bed made (not by me) demonstrates someone’s caring attention to orderly routines that bring a sense of peacefulness to the disorder of life in general. Every morning, I feel a sparkling moment of love and gratitude for the one who performs this small, intimate housekeeping chore.

It’s not a small thing, the made bed.

Not infrequently, in the advice columns (eg. Dear Abby), I read about marriages on the rocks—not because of differences over finances, childcare, politics, or in-laws; I mean over things like who empties the dishwasher, who picks up the socks, who wipes the sink, and…who makes the bed. Often there’s one who doesn’t care whether the bed is made or not, and one who does.

If I were counseling would-be couples, I might ask: Are you in agreement over Made or Unmade Bed?

Am I judging? Maybe. I grew up in a well-regulated family. That is, my father had a career in the USAF and my mother was a preacher’s kid. Certain civilities were strongly encouraged. However, in the wider world, if any number of co-habiting people agree that rumpled bed(s) can remain that way all day, I’m fine with that. Random college roommates—please relax! An unmade bed isn’t a sign of moral decay.

However, as I may have set out to say, a daily domestic life consisting of countless courtesies among partners and family members is, in my opinion, the starting place of world peace. In short, kindness begins at home.

Lucky people take for granted that our loved ones love us in spite of ourselves. But that’s no excuse for overlooking tiny, precious, everyday increments of thoughtfulness and love.

Thank you, my love, for the made bed. And I’m sorry…terribly sorry…for the scratches I made backing the car into the gate.